uncertainty

Right now I just want this week to be over, my two essays are dragging me down and my lack of interest just affirming my boredom with uni at the moment. I need a break, preferably out of the country on my own but that's not going to happen. I guess the snow trip will liven up things a little bit, but I'm going with people I already know and that was half the fun of the last trip.

It's a weird thing, going public with a blog- even in that paragraph I've not quite opened up or written what's on my mind. Semi conciously. Hopefully over time, as I realise nobody reads this I'll be able to get more personal. So why have I made this public, there must be something in me that wants somebody, anybody to read this. There would be no point in putting my thoughts on here if I didn't want people to know them... rambling, better move on.

Haircut today and it's good to let my head breathe although the hairdresser was a douche, he was called Josh which put me in high hopes, but nope, nothing there. Went to WHSmiths and was going to buy Watchmen and D&C but wanted to use a christmas voucher which I didn't have in my wallet so I'll probably get them tomorrow.

I want to find a secret door that leads to a fascinating life, away from money and tiredness, where it's possible to simply drift through life doing something here, another thing there. I want to write in abstract terms here, rather than run through the ins and outs of life which I've been doing previously, but it's hard. I want this to flow better. I want to cure cancer.